Awoken..

I feel pathetic..
because I'm like this,
drown in self pity,
I don't want to be pitied,
and yet,
I pity myself,
for not looking
from another point..
What's wrong??
nothing..
I don't know,
indecisive...
what the heck..
when will I ever learn...
to turn to a blade...
when I'm down..
and never look up
to see what's wrong...
Pills..
won't help..
I know...
A person,
is still a person...


Wake up bitch..
enough of this...
childish act..
immature..
saddist..
look everywhere..
here and there..
with your eyes
and not just mere sight...
See those scars,
they'll stay there
everlasting,
the shame
that you are going to carry
forever..
No longer pride,
just a scar,
full of guilt...
stupid girl...
wake up..
Never again,
turn to a blade for advise..
Fuck you.. you stupid knife...