Ache, Sore and blocked

It started with a flu-like symptom... which I often have it when I'm back home... Only this time, it's accompanied by head-aches and dizziness.. Well, usually I don't give a damn because it all will fade away the next day......

The hell I was..... 

When I woke up.. .....No.. I can't even wake up.. because my head felt like a rock.. A SOLID ROCK... stuck to the bed... The pain was massive, as if I was crushed head on first to a tsunami (not that I've experienced, but try to relate to get the feel of it) . My nosed was so blocked and congested till I couldn't even recognised my voice.. (I thought there was a man in my room, till I realised that manly voice belongs to me) .... My throat was so sore... until it became numb... I thought I was having spasm in my throat....

yeah.. but having pinned down by congested nose, headaches and sorethroat.... thank god I didn't catch a fever... I think I probably would just run to the hospital and shout "Save me! "

Anyway, I skipped all classes and just lay on my bed..  for the whole day... FOR THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY!! I felt like a vegetable.. See... we humans are fragile... once we're invaded by some UMO(unknown microscopic object)...... we're useless.. practically useless... like a wilted flower...

So, I messaged my dad later in the afternoon. Even a small msg was so hard.. If you have 20/20 vision... get a headache, your vision will be like those in spectacles... & if you're wearing specs....no doubt, you're good as the three blind mice......moving on... he replied and "diagnosed" me .. wow.. I'm like 123455677 miles away and he's able to diagnose me.. and true enuf.. it's the cause of my nose... I think he shud opened an online clinic or maybe a mobile clinic..

So I always tend to abuse medicine by doubling it because it gives me the thought that it may act faster... So instead of taking 2 painkiller... I took 4.. 3 in one go.. 1 an hour later...what to do?? more kick ma.....Plus.. panadol active fast.. is not that fast... It's not fast at alll  Well, it's not overdosing.. Overdose happens if you take 60 pills of panadol or 30 pills of neurofen.. (neurofen has more kick than panadol)....

& look what it brought me... I'm feeling SO MUCH BETTER NOW.... I'm even hyper because I'm feeling so good... More so, I'm so motivated to study now....I hope this is the last time I'm experiencing this kind of headache... It's scary for me.. because I can hear my heartbeat in my head......

p.s I'm so hyper.. I doubt I can sleep tonight...

Peculiar Morning

I'm not gonna bombard my post with my rants about having to study on Friday nights due to the fact I'm having classes on Saturday.... but yeah.. Today's Friday.. It should be a happy day..

Well, today's weather ain't that happy.. It's cold.. When I checked the weather forecast, it said 5 degree... but FEELS LIKE -1 DEGREE..even the weather forecast can say such things.. true enough today was indeed freaking cold...

& I thought it was just bullshit.. I mean 5 degree is cold.. but not that cold.. My roommate told me to put on the winter jacket, but I was reluctant because it was bulky and I assumed that in the evening it will be sunny.... A cotton jacket will do.. until I stepped out of the hostel.. Well stepping out wasn't hard.. I mean I kinda expect the coolness creeping up my face.. Until, I reached a corner....

There were puddles on the floor, which indicate it rains, maybe last night or what.. ( I just don't get it, why does it rain when it already has snow.. Where does all the damn heat comes from??? Horny people??) Anyway, yes.. Puddles.. and you know when strong winds blow, it sends ripples to puddle right?? Well, yeah I saw the number of ripples constantly moving on the puddles, and the long, brown/blond/white/black hair of Russian girls flying here there and everywhere, only I know that around THAT corner... lies Mr Wind.. no.. Mr Big Strong Wind.. At that moment, I turned immediately back to the hostel.. but halfway through it, I won't bother about getting another jacket due to the reason above which I stated before.. & decided to just fight against the blistering cold wind...

I almost died. 

Nah.. Not really.. It was cold.. initially.. very cold... Cold!!! like freaking cold... I can feel my cheeks freezing... My fingers numb... I don't even notice mucus coming out of my nose until it reached my mouth.. (ok, too much info)... Anyway.. but after 10 minutes of walking, I felt warm again.. So yeah.. We walked to Uni ...

& once it reached the lecture hall, my groupmates were like

"What? You walked?? It's SO COLD!!!" 

....  I was sweating when they asked me that... But I was quite happy when they say that I had rosy cheeks... means that I've gotten fairer!! No more misinterpretation of being an indian, or worst.. INDONESIAN MAID....

.Oh ya.. today.. It was snowing.. for a short moment... Snowing.. in Spring??? Weird but true.. But I didn get a chance to see as I was in the cafe drinking hot chocolate while waiting for the next class.


p.s It wasn't even warm in the evening... So much for my own weather forecasting....

A Quickie.

Doing a quick short update before class...

This week is the same... jam-packed class and mountains of information to know... & life keeps moving on...

& I keep walking.... with no hesitation... ok, ok, ok.. maybe be just a little.. you do have some turns and crossroads at some point...

So the latest news is... I maybe going back way sooner than I think.... Maybe end of May...

So early right? Well, it's because my parents are going to China on 3rd June.. and I want to go to.. I want to take this chance and just go and see places... because after this... 6 long years for books and education awaits me... I wouldn't have time for family.. consider it as a last vacation with my dad, mum and sis... Well, I want to see Jess growing up and not missing it, this would be a great time to...

But it also means that I have to sacrifice my time here with my friends... Not an easy decision, but I think this is a right thing to do...

So packing time is due soon.. I'm reluctant to leave..because I just got a hang of this place.. If I keep on moving like that, I'm afraid I'll lost my sincerity to make friends because I end up leaving without getting to know them better...

Well, at least I've been here.. & got a no. of connections from future doctors.

Feeling the Heat of the Kursk Games 2010

Kursk is so happening this two days. Why? because Kursk Games 2010 is here!! (Fyi, Kursk games is a Malaysian Intervarsity Game that take place every year in and its time for all Malaysian in Russia to gather in one place.. ) this year is Kursk time to host the event.. & the reception of this games just blew the roof of Kursk out! Even the cold weather became warmer as the heat of the event was just so great... 

Anyway, as a 1st year, we should volunteered in helping out because help was really needed and there are just too few people around.. So, I volunteered.. and I was assigned to......cut vegetables for the food preparation for 750 people.... Wow.... lots of cutting to do...

I have to start cutting at 7.30am for three days.... & for the 1st day, I cut more than 100 garlic... boxes of vegetable.. today I peeled 700 eggs... and packed for 750 people.. EXHAUSTING.. I even have to cut cabbage bigger than the size of our brain!!!!! I SHIT YOU NOT... I even cut my fingers today because I was so focus into splitting that damn bloody humongous son of a bitch cabbage into half , I didn even noticed I had my little finger under the knife.. So I cut, pressed hard.. and then...... oooh shit... I can feel the knife in my skin for a split second and then ooooh.. blood.. but it was worth it..We had a great experience with the russian ladies in the kitchen because we don't understand what were they telling us and they kept on laughing at us because we only know how to answer 'yes' and 'no' to all questions.. even to questions which are not yes-no based and statements which are not questions... but it was hilarious..

... though we laughed and laughed and cut.. these aunties are not simply aunties.. they are thieves... KNIFE-THIEVES to be exact.. They steal our "sharp and new" knife and replaced their "blunt and old" knives as ours.... WTF.. & it's not even once.. twice!.. First day, they stole it and stuck it under the table.. we found it.. hooray for us.. the second day, we kept our knives, but they found it and took it.. and this time.. they're smart.. they locked it in their room... so basically.. we were jz knife-less.. those blunt knives are not considered as knife... seriously... how cheap can they be... the central market is just round the corner..... we were kind of pissed off.. we wanted to get revenge on the loss of our beloved knife.. We planned to steal the whole kitchen... including the ventilator, the big oven and the stoves. What a surprise for them to find out not only their utensils gone, but the whole kitchen... Great plot, simple, easy and straight to the point,  revenge will never be so sweet.. Imagine the look of their old haggard face, they would be gasping in horror showing their dirty golden teeth.... However.. to do so.. we would require massive man power.. too bad, there were just 4 of us.. The 4 amigos VS the Babooshkas (means granny in russian) ..The Babooshkas win.

Anyway, so my Uni has been leading as most games are won by us... Let's hope it stays that way.. so if we win, we get a holiday.... Wow. holiday... very rare here.. They even work on Saturdays, they are workaholics.. that's why they don't have much holidays.. No wonder they are so miserable..

Moving on, today I went to watch the netball match.. & it was the bomb!!!!!!!.. ok.. maybe not so bombastic as the basketball game because my friend claimed that the whole hall was shaking with roars of cheers and screams during the game.. anyway, netball.. wow.. those players were rough... it's like a war zone out there... Who said girls like to play gentle, afraid to be touched.... You come and see for yourself.. It's like.. WWE smackdown.. and also.. there was one match where RSMU (Russian State Medic Uni) supporters and our supporters nearly start punching each other.. ahh.. I was too late was I was still peeling eggs.. but the tension was so great... because everyone wants to win... Who say girls can't fight?? You boys fight, after fight everything's ok.. When we fight... hohoho the fight continues.. eternally.... even after the fight.. We never.. NEVER forget.. We will remember where, who, when.. even date and time of the fight..

So now, 1 more day left till Kursk game is officially over.. I cut my finger and almost burned a hole into my throat today.. tiring but satisfying.. Then classes start again... My 1st and last event that I'm  experienced in Kursk.. was superbly awesome. 

p.s The search of our knives resume tomorrow.. It's the 4 amigos vs the Babooshkas .. again.. Who will win???? 

Brain+ Body = Anatomy

Wheewww... It's been a week that this blog has gone completely still... Why? Refer to the last post and you know why.. 11 hours of classes in a day, I simply can't find a day to update, nor a reason to update because my mind is just fill with bones, articulations, Русский язык, Law of Equivalence, Lingua Latina and microscope.

& Yesterday, I was so busy cramming the huge lump of information of anatomy into my brain because today we're gonna have a small test. I ate salmon for the omega 3 fatty acids and protein for more brain power, I drank green tea for anti-oxidants, I ate biscuit for energy......& I went to bed at 3 a.m, still with lack of information in my brain... & after all this, I sorta copied my notes during test...

Anatomy is no play-play.....

Of course the subject Anatomy, sounds interesting.. It's all about the Human Body... No cats, no dogs, no damn cow or any bloody rodent... Just a full detail about the Human Body... Interesting... You get to know your own body parts IN DETAIL... even better, there are pictures in the book. COLOURED SOME MORE.. Nice right? No need to imagine, no need to face black and white pictures.. True enough, if you are a master in anatomy, PORN is just mere childplay... 

Actually, it's interesting before you actually learned it.. The first time you buy the Anatomy book, you would just flipped the pages from front to back, back to front... Seeing all the colours, gives you a sense of..... (I don't know) Pride? Excitement? Horny Sensations??( seriously, I don't know.. varies in individual) Anyway, for me, when I first got hold of my Anatomy book, I felt this gush of going-to-be-a-doctor- feeling rushing down my soul... Wow... I'm gonna learn all this.. then, I'll go out, and save the world.. Yes.. Save the world.. not the cheerleader, but the world.. That was my feeling at that moment..

Now....... Anatomy is a challenge... I have 3 classes a week (due to extra classes)... and every class there are new things coming up.. it's quite a blow to my poor brain as it has been relying on bread and biscuit for this past few weeks... I don't deny that it's interesting, but.. it's also very mental challenging... I don't know why God wants to insert so much ligaments here and there.... Heck, why are we so complex?? Because of our complex body, that's why mentally we became so complicated.... That explain how the law of gravity came.. because some random complicated-who-really-has-nothing-to-do- or he- just-no-friends-due-to-his-complexity-mind person who's name happened to be Newton  decided to ask

"Why did the apple drop from the tree and not fly like a bird",

instead of just eating it... If Newton were, a bear.. "He" would just eat it.. and not question it.. and then continue to search for another apple tree.. Maybe the only question that "he" would ask is..

"Why is the apple so sour?"

So, where was I?? Ahh, yes Anatomy... So this sums up everything.. Anatomy may sound interesting.. but.. there's a reason that it's called Anatomy..

I know, you may see Facebook there.. but don't be fooled.. It's information from peeps... about what??        Anatomy......

p.s I wish my brain has more capacity for absorption of information.

Classes Havoc

Today, we got our timetables reshuffled.. Not exactly reshuffled but additional classes were added into the schedule... Before this, I can say that we came to Russia to relax and enjoy... until today...when the real thing began. Russian classes, extra Chemistry classes, extra Biology... everything seem to doubled up.. Before this.. the most classes we had on one day is.. 2 or 3. somedays only 1 class!! Relax right?????

Today, literally before our eyes, the "new" timetable with minimum at least 4 classes a day... some days we have to be in class from 8am to 7pm???  Oh of the love of god! 8am to 7pm??? That's like 11hours!!!! of coz there are breaks here and there... but still... I DON'T EVEN GET TO SLEEP FOR 11 HOURS! & with such timetable.. we only have 1 rest day.. which is Sunday... which is not really a rest day.. because the next day we gonna have the 11 hours of classes .. so means we would need to do revision here and there.. n mind you we do have classes on Saturday......

What to do??


Nothing.. Why??

Because we missed almost 2 months of class.. that's why...

So, suck it up and bring it on baby. 2 more months to go. Then I'm gonna restart everything again.

p.s No, seriously... 8am to 7pm??!

A bump that Changed the course of life.

When life starts to sail smoothly, it must always go through bumps.. Big one, small one... I don't know...

Yes.. as I was saying.. Just when I settled down happily... My mum brought me news that I've never expected.

News that made me think twice, thrice.... lots of times...

I don't like to be indecisive because I don't like the feeling of being pulled apart by 2 choices... I don't like regretting because I made lots of mistakes.. & tons of it still comes into my mind with "what if, and why" questions... That's why.. I don't like being indecisive...


& guess what the news is??

I passed the PMC interview......& offered a place in Ireland...

I always wanted to go to Ireland since ever.. since I was, I don't know.. 7?? I was imagining myself smelling the air in Ireland.. That was my one and only dream...Although I do have other dreams... but this dream..is real. Because I know that I would go there some day...

& before that, I got an offer to Russia.. & I think it would be cool to go there... Kind of expected the situation and thought it would be a great challenge for me.. & it would be fun cause it'll make me a stronger person.


& when I arrived here, I like the place more than I've expected because the friends and seniors here are great... Yes.. the one good thing about our country is.. when we go overseas, we are all Malaysians... and we are just this unbreakable circle... I made friends with indians, malay, chinese, sarawakians, sabahans.. Races that I've never mixed before... Heck, I spoke more malay here than in chinese... Seriously.. it was great..

I even told myself that if I really get the Ireland offer, I would reject it.. & I think pretty much nearly convinced myself.. I was telling my mum No, No.. and no... I don't want... on the phone...

Then, when the news came ... I felt so indecisive for the 1st time of my life... I couldn't choose.. I knew this is the chance.. this is the once in a lifetime opportunity... & I'm afraid if I reject it, I would never get that opportunity back again..... On the other hand, I don't want to see the sad faces but some how glad.. but still sad faces of friends... Goodbyes.. are never good... Who loves goodbye...

I consult some of my friends, they were supportive... Very supportive. I really thank you all... Only 1 week of bonding, you're already telling me how much you'll miss me... One of my friend told me that if you were meant to be in a place, you'll some how get there... & she shared her experiences with me... I even prayed ( not pray lah, sort of my way of talking to God) and ask Him to help me...

So.. after 2 days of mind-breaking, deep searching...

I'm going to Ireland...

I'm like touring the world.. From the south to the north... but.. I know that after this decision.. I won't have second thoughts...

Now.. the problem is..

How to get out of this place????

p.s I want to apologise to the people, if I've disappointed you. I'm sorry.

Random babble

Hmm.. is nutrition that important??? How long does malnutrition kicks in?

I don't know.. Sometimes I think malnutrition is just some words created by nutritive-obsessed human beings just to scare children and people like us (or maybe me) to eat everything's on the plate...

Or...

maybe I'm having a mental breakdown because of malnutrition which explains the cause of this post...






.. Just kidding....



No one's having malnutrition..


I'm just feeling good because I just finished my chemistry notes... with a better understanding.... Well, I can see that I'm being more serious in my studies and not like in the past which I don't give a damn.... of course I do procrastinate... everyone does... If you don't please go and fuck yourself and stay away from me and my blog.. or just 10000 feet away from my radius site..

Everyone procrastinate, and that's a fact.. So no point telling me the old damn phrase about procrastinating is stealing things from time.. Everything just depends on much self control you have over your own biological mind and time to finish your work..


a-hem........ Today's just a random babble about things as I cannot bear to see my blog becoming a cyber web with dustware all around it..

p.s My diet consist of bread and biscuits.... Let's see the outcome a year later.

p.p.s I'm going to play netball approximately 1 hour from now.. Counting down...

1st day of Uni.

Today, is the first day of class...

& the first lesson is Anatomy......

Our group consist of 8 Malaysians, 2 Sri-Lankans and 2 Brazilians. & As new students, we have no idea where the hell is our class.. All the rooms are written in Russian, so no one understood it as well.. So we walked from one end to one end, then back again from that end to that end in the Anatomy department.

& After endless of walking which seems like for an hour which was actually around 10 minutes, we were intercept by one hot, bodacious woman who is.. our teacher. Her name is Marina.. or Amarina... We don't know because we can't catch her name properly.

So class starts officially. Our teacher introduces herself, then she introduces the plan of our lessons.. Apparently, we'll be learning about the bones and skeletal system first. Before lesson start, she brought us along for a tour along the Anatomy Department.

First place we went is straight into a room full of cadavers(Dead bodies).. Since we were learning about bones, we don't actually need to see a cadaver.. but as we enter the room.. and as I was infront, I saw a group of medical students of different year, taking a cadaver out... I just felt the chill digging deep into my bones... thanks to all the horror and thriller movies...Anyway, as my teacher was finding the place where the store real life bones, she opened the wrong cover, and there... lies another cadaver..which literally, nearly made me freaked.... Anyway, as time pass, I know I'll get use to it.. so it doesn't hurt for a few freaked-out moments...

Then, she brought us to the Anatomy Museum which is quite small.. and there are more dead things there..There were lots of dead babies.. or shall I say foetus?? Yes, some are joined together.. some looked disfigured..one has only 1 eye... YES.. I REALLY SHIT YOU NOT!.. 1 eye.. like an alien... most of them were all abnormal. Then there were body parts, like leg, hands, heart and lungs.. eyeballs... and ears.. Then the standard one, like bones, skeleton, nerves.. Very interesting.. I wonder, the doctors from the past must be a very horrible person.. The first doctor who studied real life human body must be very inhuman or just psycho... because who the hell would come out with such idea

" I'm going to cut and chop you into pieces, then I'll study you for the benefit of mankind"...

In this era, people who chop other people are called psychotic killers.


Then after the touring, we return to class, and resume our normal lesson..

After Anatomy... we had Maths Lecture..

OMFG!

Why do we need to study Maths????? So means every part of our body is a function, we can either integrate it or differentiate it.. to see how we can perform operations on them??? WTH?!

Anyway, the lecture was boring.. Why?

1st, the table was slanting 50 degree.. so if you don't hold your things in properly, it'll start slipping off the table, and then proceed to make a dramatic and may I also add a very embarrassing crash on to the ground which then results in the attention of all eyes on you......

2nd, the teacher.. who was also a young, hot lady has a very soft voice..... We can hardly hear her... It looks like she's talking to the front row or herself only.... & what is worst is.... there's a microphone, and she doesn't use it....

3rd, the Maths was a higher level of integration which leaves me clueless, so from copying the contents of the slide, I resulted into photography.. which is.. snapping pictures of the slides.....


Yes.. Maths suck...

so that conclude the 1st day of Uni... interesting day..

p.s If anything goes wrong, it will go wrong. (Murphy's Law)

Walking into Medicine

Today we went to collect our results. & guessed what?

WE PASSED!! & WE'RE NOW OFFICIALLY FIRST YEAR MEDICAL STUDENTS!!

& class starts tomorrow.. Are you shitting me?? Maybe Russians love April Fool's .. Anyway, tomorrow first class is about Anatomy.. & from what I heard, we're gonna learn about our bones.... I think I should purchase a skeleton... Seriously..

So means, as class is starting already... it also gave the signal that I should stop facebooking so often, less movies, and a whole lot of studying and thinking.. IT'S TIME!!! ............ to use my brain..

Anyway, I've forgotten about this... Today is our 1st week in Kursk.. & we're still alive.. and I think we just got use to the place, it's just the language barrier that won't allow us to blend in completely.... so sign language is our language... I think we can communicate with the deaf already..

So good luck and all the best.... My dreams has just started, & it's taking its own toll...

p.s Sometimes, the more I write, the more I feel like a bimbo babbling about my life... bah!