A bump that Changed the course of life.

When life starts to sail smoothly, it must always go through bumps.. Big one, small one... I don't know...

Yes.. as I was saying.. Just when I settled down happily... My mum brought me news that I've never expected.

News that made me think twice, thrice.... lots of times...

I don't like to be indecisive because I don't like the feeling of being pulled apart by 2 choices... I don't like regretting because I made lots of mistakes.. & tons of it still comes into my mind with "what if, and why" questions... That's why.. I don't like being indecisive...


& guess what the news is??

I passed the PMC interview......& offered a place in Ireland...

I always wanted to go to Ireland since ever.. since I was, I don't know.. 7?? I was imagining myself smelling the air in Ireland.. That was my one and only dream...Although I do have other dreams... but this dream..is real. Because I know that I would go there some day...

& before that, I got an offer to Russia.. & I think it would be cool to go there... Kind of expected the situation and thought it would be a great challenge for me.. & it would be fun cause it'll make me a stronger person.


& when I arrived here, I like the place more than I've expected because the friends and seniors here are great... Yes.. the one good thing about our country is.. when we go overseas, we are all Malaysians... and we are just this unbreakable circle... I made friends with indians, malay, chinese, sarawakians, sabahans.. Races that I've never mixed before... Heck, I spoke more malay here than in chinese... Seriously.. it was great..

I even told myself that if I really get the Ireland offer, I would reject it.. & I think pretty much nearly convinced myself.. I was telling my mum No, No.. and no... I don't want... on the phone...

Then, when the news came ... I felt so indecisive for the 1st time of my life... I couldn't choose.. I knew this is the chance.. this is the once in a lifetime opportunity... & I'm afraid if I reject it, I would never get that opportunity back again..... On the other hand, I don't want to see the sad faces but some how glad.. but still sad faces of friends... Goodbyes.. are never good... Who loves goodbye...

I consult some of my friends, they were supportive... Very supportive. I really thank you all... Only 1 week of bonding, you're already telling me how much you'll miss me... One of my friend told me that if you were meant to be in a place, you'll some how get there... & she shared her experiences with me... I even prayed ( not pray lah, sort of my way of talking to God) and ask Him to help me...

So.. after 2 days of mind-breaking, deep searching...

I'm going to Ireland...

I'm like touring the world.. From the south to the north... but.. I know that after this decision.. I won't have second thoughts...

Now.. the problem is..

How to get out of this place????

p.s I want to apologise to the people, if I've disappointed you. I'm sorry.