CheckList and Bizarre things.

Am currently doing a checklist now.. There are so many things to bring there.. I just don't know what to bring there.. There are things that I WANT to bring... and also things that I NEED to bring.. Need is a must..but want, let's just say it's a conflict with the inner side. & time is running out.. gawd!! I wish that my parents will do everything for me, but I realised that I don't need them to do this because they wouldn't know what I really need, or want... & I think I'm capable enough to go out and get it..

Well, this is the first time, going out here and there for last minute shopping.. because last time, I had no license. I have license now.. which is quite a blessing.. I get to zoom here and there.. Though the fines I got is quite a pain in the ass. Last time, I had no money, all the money comes from my mother's big purse.. Now I have money in my bank (though it's still my parents money, but consider it mine because I get to use and spend it with my own wise brain).

So what the hell am I still blogging and not out there with my ass scouting my needs??? Seriously, I don't know. I don't even know what I want.. I'm still too occupied with the thoughts of going bungee jumping with a bridal gown from Vera Wang with Miss Chai...which I don't know after how many years time only we'll be doing it.. I wished I have some kind of personal assistance, that would do all this things for me.. Yeah right, keep dreaming.. I'm no Paris Hilton. I just have to swallow the bitter fact that I have to do this all by myself.. This sucks man.. Seriously, and fuckingly sucks!

Anyway, for now.. I just have keep everything organised write them down..write them ALL DOWN... then I'm out of the house and get all those things at one shot.

and once in while, I get distracted by random thoughts.. for example ... the bungee jump thing... AGAIN.. The cute guy in MPH.. *grins* .. Oh, yesterday I decided that, if.. IF I cannot make it into medic.. if I fail and continue to fail like some pathetic loser.. Then... I'll join the army. Seriously. But.. the problem is.. Hello, you're in Malaysia.. They don't need the army because nobody wants to take over this country... because the leaders all love to sodomise each other and call each other immigrants... and while other countries are equipped with atomic, nuclear,hydrogen bomb.... We only got some C4 explosives which are capable to blow up some Mongolian chic in pieces... Other countries have warships and huge submarine which can DIVE.. our can only sink but cannot emerge.. & if and if there's really a war.. We won't use guns, and instead use silat and keris to fight the enemy to keep our "Ketuanan Melayu" spirit intact.. and if there's no jungle.. We will definitely lose. No corner to relak mah..

Well, that's just the worst case scenario if and only if I don't pass....