Ache, Sore and blocked

It started with a flu-like symptom... which I often have it when I'm back home... Only this time, it's accompanied by head-aches and dizziness.. Well, usually I don't give a damn because it all will fade away the next day......

The hell I was..... 

When I woke up.. .....No.. I can't even wake up.. because my head felt like a rock.. A SOLID ROCK... stuck to the bed... The pain was massive, as if I was crushed head on first to a tsunami (not that I've experienced, but try to relate to get the feel of it) . My nosed was so blocked and congested till I couldn't even recognised my voice.. (I thought there was a man in my room, till I realised that manly voice belongs to me) .... My throat was so sore... until it became numb... I thought I was having spasm in my throat....

yeah.. but having pinned down by congested nose, headaches and sorethroat.... thank god I didn't catch a fever... I think I probably would just run to the hospital and shout "Save me! "

Anyway, I skipped all classes and just lay on my bed..  for the whole day... FOR THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY!! I felt like a vegetable.. See... we humans are fragile... once we're invaded by some UMO(unknown microscopic object)...... we're useless.. practically useless... like a wilted flower...

So, I messaged my dad later in the afternoon. Even a small msg was so hard.. If you have 20/20 vision... get a headache, your vision will be like those in spectacles... & if you're wearing specs....no doubt, you're good as the three blind mice......moving on... he replied and "diagnosed" me .. wow.. I'm like 123455677 miles away and he's able to diagnose me.. and true enuf.. it's the cause of my nose... I think he shud opened an online clinic or maybe a mobile clinic..

So I always tend to abuse medicine by doubling it because it gives me the thought that it may act faster... So instead of taking 2 painkiller... I took 4.. 3 in one go.. 1 an hour later...what to do?? more kick ma.....Plus.. panadol active fast.. is not that fast... It's not fast at alll  Well, it's not overdosing.. Overdose happens if you take 60 pills of panadol or 30 pills of neurofen.. (neurofen has more kick than panadol)....

& look what it brought me... I'm feeling SO MUCH BETTER NOW.... I'm even hyper because I'm feeling so good... More so, I'm so motivated to study now....I hope this is the last time I'm experiencing this kind of headache... It's scary for me.. because I can hear my heartbeat in my head......

p.s I'm so hyper.. I doubt I can sleep tonight...

Peculiar Morning

I'm not gonna bombard my post with my rants about having to study on Friday nights due to the fact I'm having classes on Saturday.... but yeah.. Today's Friday.. It should be a happy day..

Well, today's weather ain't that happy.. It's cold.. When I checked the weather forecast, it said 5 degree... but FEELS LIKE -1 DEGREE..even the weather forecast can say such things.. true enough today was indeed freaking cold...

& I thought it was just bullshit.. I mean 5 degree is cold.. but not that cold.. My roommate told me to put on the winter jacket, but I was reluctant because it was bulky and I assumed that in the evening it will be sunny.... A cotton jacket will do.. until I stepped out of the hostel.. Well stepping out wasn't hard.. I mean I kinda expect the coolness creeping up my face.. Until, I reached a corner....

There were puddles on the floor, which indicate it rains, maybe last night or what.. ( I just don't get it, why does it rain when it already has snow.. Where does all the damn heat comes from??? Horny people??) Anyway, yes.. Puddles.. and you know when strong winds blow, it sends ripples to puddle right?? Well, yeah I saw the number of ripples constantly moving on the puddles, and the long, brown/blond/white/black hair of Russian girls flying here there and everywhere, only I know that around THAT corner... lies Mr Wind.. no.. Mr Big Strong Wind.. At that moment, I turned immediately back to the hostel.. but halfway through it, I won't bother about getting another jacket due to the reason above which I stated before.. & decided to just fight against the blistering cold wind...

I almost died. 

Nah.. Not really.. It was cold.. initially.. very cold... Cold!!! like freaking cold... I can feel my cheeks freezing... My fingers numb... I don't even notice mucus coming out of my nose until it reached my mouth.. (ok, too much info)... Anyway.. but after 10 minutes of walking, I felt warm again.. So yeah.. We walked to Uni ...

& once it reached the lecture hall, my groupmates were like

"What? You walked?? It's SO COLD!!!" 

....  I was sweating when they asked me that... But I was quite happy when they say that I had rosy cheeks... means that I've gotten fairer!! No more misinterpretation of being an indian, or worst.. INDONESIAN MAID....

.Oh ya.. today.. It was snowing.. for a short moment... Snowing.. in Spring??? Weird but true.. But I didn get a chance to see as I was in the cafe drinking hot chocolate while waiting for the next class.


p.s It wasn't even warm in the evening... So much for my own weather forecasting....

A Quickie.

Doing a quick short update before class...

This week is the same... jam-packed class and mountains of information to know... & life keeps moving on...

& I keep walking.... with no hesitation... ok, ok, ok.. maybe be just a little.. you do have some turns and crossroads at some point...

So the latest news is... I maybe going back way sooner than I think.... Maybe end of May...

So early right? Well, it's because my parents are going to China on 3rd June.. and I want to go to.. I want to take this chance and just go and see places... because after this... 6 long years for books and education awaits me... I wouldn't have time for family.. consider it as a last vacation with my dad, mum and sis... Well, I want to see Jess growing up and not missing it, this would be a great time to...

But it also means that I have to sacrifice my time here with my friends... Not an easy decision, but I think this is a right thing to do...

So packing time is due soon.. I'm reluctant to leave..because I just got a hang of this place.. If I keep on moving like that, I'm afraid I'll lost my sincerity to make friends because I end up leaving without getting to know them better...

Well, at least I've been here.. & got a no. of connections from future doctors.

Feeling the Heat of the Kursk Games 2010

Kursk is so happening this two days. Why? because Kursk Games 2010 is here!! (Fyi, Kursk games is a Malaysian Intervarsity Game that take place every year in and its time for all Malaysian in Russia to gather in one place.. ) this year is Kursk time to host the event.. & the reception of this games just blew the roof of Kursk out! Even the cold weather became warmer as the heat of the event was just so great... 

Anyway, as a 1st year, we should volunteered in helping out because help was really needed and there are just too few people around.. So, I volunteered.. and I was assigned to......cut vegetables for the food preparation for 750 people.... Wow.... lots of cutting to do...

I have to start cutting at 7.30am for three days.... & for the 1st day, I cut more than 100 garlic... boxes of vegetable.. today I peeled 700 eggs... and packed for 750 people.. EXHAUSTING.. I even have to cut cabbage bigger than the size of our brain!!!!! I SHIT YOU NOT... I even cut my fingers today because I was so focus into splitting that damn bloody humongous son of a bitch cabbage into half , I didn even noticed I had my little finger under the knife.. So I cut, pressed hard.. and then...... oooh shit... I can feel the knife in my skin for a split second and then ooooh.. blood.. but it was worth it..We had a great experience with the russian ladies in the kitchen because we don't understand what were they telling us and they kept on laughing at us because we only know how to answer 'yes' and 'no' to all questions.. even to questions which are not yes-no based and statements which are not questions... but it was hilarious..

... though we laughed and laughed and cut.. these aunties are not simply aunties.. they are thieves... KNIFE-THIEVES to be exact.. They steal our "sharp and new" knife and replaced their "blunt and old" knives as ours.... WTF.. & it's not even once.. twice!.. First day, they stole it and stuck it under the table.. we found it.. hooray for us.. the second day, we kept our knives, but they found it and took it.. and this time.. they're smart.. they locked it in their room... so basically.. we were jz knife-less.. those blunt knives are not considered as knife... seriously... how cheap can they be... the central market is just round the corner..... we were kind of pissed off.. we wanted to get revenge on the loss of our beloved knife.. We planned to steal the whole kitchen... including the ventilator, the big oven and the stoves. What a surprise for them to find out not only their utensils gone, but the whole kitchen... Great plot, simple, easy and straight to the point,  revenge will never be so sweet.. Imagine the look of their old haggard face, they would be gasping in horror showing their dirty golden teeth.... However.. to do so.. we would require massive man power.. too bad, there were just 4 of us.. The 4 amigos VS the Babooshkas (means granny in russian) ..The Babooshkas win.

Anyway, so my Uni has been leading as most games are won by us... Let's hope it stays that way.. so if we win, we get a holiday.... Wow. holiday... very rare here.. They even work on Saturdays, they are workaholics.. that's why they don't have much holidays.. No wonder they are so miserable..

Moving on, today I went to watch the netball match.. & it was the bomb!!!!!!!.. ok.. maybe not so bombastic as the basketball game because my friend claimed that the whole hall was shaking with roars of cheers and screams during the game.. anyway, netball.. wow.. those players were rough... it's like a war zone out there... Who said girls like to play gentle, afraid to be touched.... You come and see for yourself.. It's like.. WWE smackdown.. and also.. there was one match where RSMU (Russian State Medic Uni) supporters and our supporters nearly start punching each other.. ahh.. I was too late was I was still peeling eggs.. but the tension was so great... because everyone wants to win... Who say girls can't fight?? You boys fight, after fight everything's ok.. When we fight... hohoho the fight continues.. eternally.... even after the fight.. We never.. NEVER forget.. We will remember where, who, when.. even date and time of the fight..

So now, 1 more day left till Kursk game is officially over.. I cut my finger and almost burned a hole into my throat today.. tiring but satisfying.. Then classes start again... My 1st and last event that I'm  experienced in Kursk.. was superbly awesome. 

p.s The search of our knives resume tomorrow.. It's the 4 amigos vs the Babooshkas .. again.. Who will win???? 

Brain+ Body = Anatomy

Wheewww... It's been a week that this blog has gone completely still... Why? Refer to the last post and you know why.. 11 hours of classes in a day, I simply can't find a day to update, nor a reason to update because my mind is just fill with bones, articulations, Русский язык, Law of Equivalence, Lingua Latina and microscope.

& Yesterday, I was so busy cramming the huge lump of information of anatomy into my brain because today we're gonna have a small test. I ate salmon for the omega 3 fatty acids and protein for more brain power, I drank green tea for anti-oxidants, I ate biscuit for energy......& I went to bed at 3 a.m, still with lack of information in my brain... & after all this, I sorta copied my notes during test...

Anatomy is no play-play.....

Of course the subject Anatomy, sounds interesting.. It's all about the Human Body... No cats, no dogs, no damn cow or any bloody rodent... Just a full detail about the Human Body... Interesting... You get to know your own body parts IN DETAIL... even better, there are pictures in the book. COLOURED SOME MORE.. Nice right? No need to imagine, no need to face black and white pictures.. True enough, if you are a master in anatomy, PORN is just mere childplay... 

Actually, it's interesting before you actually learned it.. The first time you buy the Anatomy book, you would just flipped the pages from front to back, back to front... Seeing all the colours, gives you a sense of..... (I don't know) Pride? Excitement? Horny Sensations??( seriously, I don't know.. varies in individual) Anyway, for me, when I first got hold of my Anatomy book, I felt this gush of going-to-be-a-doctor- feeling rushing down my soul... Wow... I'm gonna learn all this.. then, I'll go out, and save the world.. Yes.. Save the world.. not the cheerleader, but the world.. That was my feeling at that moment..

Now....... Anatomy is a challenge... I have 3 classes a week (due to extra classes)... and every class there are new things coming up.. it's quite a blow to my poor brain as it has been relying on bread and biscuit for this past few weeks... I don't deny that it's interesting, but.. it's also very mental challenging... I don't know why God wants to insert so much ligaments here and there.... Heck, why are we so complex?? Because of our complex body, that's why mentally we became so complicated.... That explain how the law of gravity came.. because some random complicated-who-really-has-nothing-to-do- or he- just-no-friends-due-to-his-complexity-mind person who's name happened to be Newton  decided to ask

"Why did the apple drop from the tree and not fly like a bird",

instead of just eating it... If Newton were, a bear.. "He" would just eat it.. and not question it.. and then continue to search for another apple tree.. Maybe the only question that "he" would ask is..

"Why is the apple so sour?"

So, where was I?? Ahh, yes Anatomy... So this sums up everything.. Anatomy may sound interesting.. but.. there's a reason that it's called Anatomy..

I know, you may see Facebook there.. but don't be fooled.. It's information from peeps... about what??        Anatomy......

p.s I wish my brain has more capacity for absorption of information.

Classes Havoc

Today, we got our timetables reshuffled.. Not exactly reshuffled but additional classes were added into the schedule... Before this, I can say that we came to Russia to relax and enjoy... until today...when the real thing began. Russian classes, extra Chemistry classes, extra Biology... everything seem to doubled up.. Before this.. the most classes we had on one day is.. 2 or 3. somedays only 1 class!! Relax right?????

Today, literally before our eyes, the "new" timetable with minimum at least 4 classes a day... some days we have to be in class from 8am to 7pm???  Oh of the love of god! 8am to 7pm??? That's like 11hours!!!! of coz there are breaks here and there... but still... I DON'T EVEN GET TO SLEEP FOR 11 HOURS! & with such timetable.. we only have 1 rest day.. which is Sunday... which is not really a rest day.. because the next day we gonna have the 11 hours of classes .. so means we would need to do revision here and there.. n mind you we do have classes on Saturday......

What to do??


Nothing.. Why??

Because we missed almost 2 months of class.. that's why...

So, suck it up and bring it on baby. 2 more months to go. Then I'm gonna restart everything again.

p.s No, seriously... 8am to 7pm??!

A bump that Changed the course of life.

When life starts to sail smoothly, it must always go through bumps.. Big one, small one... I don't know...

Yes.. as I was saying.. Just when I settled down happily... My mum brought me news that I've never expected.

News that made me think twice, thrice.... lots of times...

I don't like to be indecisive because I don't like the feeling of being pulled apart by 2 choices... I don't like regretting because I made lots of mistakes.. & tons of it still comes into my mind with "what if, and why" questions... That's why.. I don't like being indecisive...


& guess what the news is??

I passed the PMC interview......& offered a place in Ireland...

I always wanted to go to Ireland since ever.. since I was, I don't know.. 7?? I was imagining myself smelling the air in Ireland.. That was my one and only dream...Although I do have other dreams... but this dream..is real. Because I know that I would go there some day...

& before that, I got an offer to Russia.. & I think it would be cool to go there... Kind of expected the situation and thought it would be a great challenge for me.. & it would be fun cause it'll make me a stronger person.


& when I arrived here, I like the place more than I've expected because the friends and seniors here are great... Yes.. the one good thing about our country is.. when we go overseas, we are all Malaysians... and we are just this unbreakable circle... I made friends with indians, malay, chinese, sarawakians, sabahans.. Races that I've never mixed before... Heck, I spoke more malay here than in chinese... Seriously.. it was great..

I even told myself that if I really get the Ireland offer, I would reject it.. & I think pretty much nearly convinced myself.. I was telling my mum No, No.. and no... I don't want... on the phone...

Then, when the news came ... I felt so indecisive for the 1st time of my life... I couldn't choose.. I knew this is the chance.. this is the once in a lifetime opportunity... & I'm afraid if I reject it, I would never get that opportunity back again..... On the other hand, I don't want to see the sad faces but some how glad.. but still sad faces of friends... Goodbyes.. are never good... Who loves goodbye...

I consult some of my friends, they were supportive... Very supportive. I really thank you all... Only 1 week of bonding, you're already telling me how much you'll miss me... One of my friend told me that if you were meant to be in a place, you'll some how get there... & she shared her experiences with me... I even prayed ( not pray lah, sort of my way of talking to God) and ask Him to help me...

So.. after 2 days of mind-breaking, deep searching...

I'm going to Ireland...

I'm like touring the world.. From the south to the north... but.. I know that after this decision.. I won't have second thoughts...

Now.. the problem is..

How to get out of this place????

p.s I want to apologise to the people, if I've disappointed you. I'm sorry.

Random babble

Hmm.. is nutrition that important??? How long does malnutrition kicks in?

I don't know.. Sometimes I think malnutrition is just some words created by nutritive-obsessed human beings just to scare children and people like us (or maybe me) to eat everything's on the plate...

Or...

maybe I'm having a mental breakdown because of malnutrition which explains the cause of this post...






.. Just kidding....



No one's having malnutrition..


I'm just feeling good because I just finished my chemistry notes... with a better understanding.... Well, I can see that I'm being more serious in my studies and not like in the past which I don't give a damn.... of course I do procrastinate... everyone does... If you don't please go and fuck yourself and stay away from me and my blog.. or just 10000 feet away from my radius site..

Everyone procrastinate, and that's a fact.. So no point telling me the old damn phrase about procrastinating is stealing things from time.. Everything just depends on much self control you have over your own biological mind and time to finish your work..


a-hem........ Today's just a random babble about things as I cannot bear to see my blog becoming a cyber web with dustware all around it..

p.s My diet consist of bread and biscuits.... Let's see the outcome a year later.

p.p.s I'm going to play netball approximately 1 hour from now.. Counting down...

1st day of Uni.

Today, is the first day of class...

& the first lesson is Anatomy......

Our group consist of 8 Malaysians, 2 Sri-Lankans and 2 Brazilians. & As new students, we have no idea where the hell is our class.. All the rooms are written in Russian, so no one understood it as well.. So we walked from one end to one end, then back again from that end to that end in the Anatomy department.

& After endless of walking which seems like for an hour which was actually around 10 minutes, we were intercept by one hot, bodacious woman who is.. our teacher. Her name is Marina.. or Amarina... We don't know because we can't catch her name properly.

So class starts officially. Our teacher introduces herself, then she introduces the plan of our lessons.. Apparently, we'll be learning about the bones and skeletal system first. Before lesson start, she brought us along for a tour along the Anatomy Department.

First place we went is straight into a room full of cadavers(Dead bodies).. Since we were learning about bones, we don't actually need to see a cadaver.. but as we enter the room.. and as I was infront, I saw a group of medical students of different year, taking a cadaver out... I just felt the chill digging deep into my bones... thanks to all the horror and thriller movies...Anyway, as my teacher was finding the place where the store real life bones, she opened the wrong cover, and there... lies another cadaver..which literally, nearly made me freaked.... Anyway, as time pass, I know I'll get use to it.. so it doesn't hurt for a few freaked-out moments...

Then, she brought us to the Anatomy Museum which is quite small.. and there are more dead things there..There were lots of dead babies.. or shall I say foetus?? Yes, some are joined together.. some looked disfigured..one has only 1 eye... YES.. I REALLY SHIT YOU NOT!.. 1 eye.. like an alien... most of them were all abnormal. Then there were body parts, like leg, hands, heart and lungs.. eyeballs... and ears.. Then the standard one, like bones, skeleton, nerves.. Very interesting.. I wonder, the doctors from the past must be a very horrible person.. The first doctor who studied real life human body must be very inhuman or just psycho... because who the hell would come out with such idea

" I'm going to cut and chop you into pieces, then I'll study you for the benefit of mankind"...

In this era, people who chop other people are called psychotic killers.


Then after the touring, we return to class, and resume our normal lesson..

After Anatomy... we had Maths Lecture..

OMFG!

Why do we need to study Maths????? So means every part of our body is a function, we can either integrate it or differentiate it.. to see how we can perform operations on them??? WTH?!

Anyway, the lecture was boring.. Why?

1st, the table was slanting 50 degree.. so if you don't hold your things in properly, it'll start slipping off the table, and then proceed to make a dramatic and may I also add a very embarrassing crash on to the ground which then results in the attention of all eyes on you......

2nd, the teacher.. who was also a young, hot lady has a very soft voice..... We can hardly hear her... It looks like she's talking to the front row or herself only.... & what is worst is.... there's a microphone, and she doesn't use it....

3rd, the Maths was a higher level of integration which leaves me clueless, so from copying the contents of the slide, I resulted into photography.. which is.. snapping pictures of the slides.....


Yes.. Maths suck...

so that conclude the 1st day of Uni... interesting day..

p.s If anything goes wrong, it will go wrong. (Murphy's Law)

Walking into Medicine

Today we went to collect our results. & guessed what?

WE PASSED!! & WE'RE NOW OFFICIALLY FIRST YEAR MEDICAL STUDENTS!!

& class starts tomorrow.. Are you shitting me?? Maybe Russians love April Fool's .. Anyway, tomorrow first class is about Anatomy.. & from what I heard, we're gonna learn about our bones.... I think I should purchase a skeleton... Seriously..

So means, as class is starting already... it also gave the signal that I should stop facebooking so often, less movies, and a whole lot of studying and thinking.. IT'S TIME!!! ............ to use my brain..

Anyway, I've forgotten about this... Today is our 1st week in Kursk.. & we're still alive.. and I think we just got use to the place, it's just the language barrier that won't allow us to blend in completely.... so sign language is our language... I think we can communicate with the deaf already..

So good luck and all the best.... My dreams has just started, & it's taking its own toll...

p.s Sometimes, the more I write, the more I feel like a bimbo babbling about my life... bah!

Entrance horror

Today, we had our Chemistry and Biology entrance test. Yes. Entrance test. Before we came here, no one told us that we need to go through an entrance test. After we came here, people start to drop the bomb on us and just spill the news: Ooh! You have an entrance test!! You can re-sit it 3 times, the 4th is on your own... Yes, surprises.. Who doesn't love them??

Anyway, thank god we got tips from the past students.. They gave us images of the test paper with answer.. So practically, we can see what is coming out. But depends on your luck whether the question you read will come out on your paper because each paper is different.

This entrance test is a multiple choice based. So, literally you need some good aiming skills with all lot of luck to shoot down the correct answers.
Chemistry was ok. Why? Because my question papers has the answers written all over. Some were wrong, some were correct, some were... (I don't even know whether its wrong or correct)... Anyway, I'm confident that I'll pass Chemistry..

but.. Biology.. everybody came out "what the fucking".. it was beyond hard.. like.. hard, hard.... Questions were based on zoology, botany, anatomy.... anatomy was acceptable cause we were suppose to be enrolled into medical degree.. but why zoology or botany??? So, yeah. It was plain hard.... till everyone kept their finger's crossed for tomorrow's result.

During Biology test, I sat near a guy from Nigeria. So during the hardest, longest 1hour of our lives, this guy suddenly raised his hands in the middle of the test, while we were burying our heads and squeezing every last bit of our brain, answering the questions...He asked the teacher whether he can changed his pen as it was... somehow inkless... The teacher, looked annoyed but let him changed.. So he got up and got out the room..for.... who knows how long.... When he came back, the teacher refused to let him continue the test. Then, he started begging the teacher, he said that this was his 4th time and asked her to gave him another chance..At first, the teacher was cold. she just said no, hand in the test paper. He kept on begging, so the teacher gave him a time limit to finish off.

THEN.. this is the climax.. Another teacher came in.. whispered something into the current teacher sitting down.. They got up, and asked, no... ORDERED. the Nigeria guy to empty his pocket... You know that if you did something wrong, and got busted, you have that looked in your face, the shocked and frightened look. Yes, this guy has exactly that facial expression... the teacher insisted him to empty his pocket.. So, out came the notes from both pockets... He looked so dejected.. 4th time sitting and you are cheating??? I felt sorry for that guy, I think he's flunking for sure... This was the first time I saw somebody got caught red handed in the midst of cheating.. Unpleasant sight but interesting...

That's why if you want to cheat, don't get caught.

14 things agents don't tell you about Kursk.

Ok. I'm going to give a few heads up for those who may becoming to Kursk to study. I mean who knows there maybe people who planned to study here and wants to know how this place is and just randomly stumble upon this pathetic site...

1. Kursk has no mcdonalds, KFC , dominos and pizza hut.
They do have a fast food shop, but its costly.

2. The hostel room and toilet is smaller than you think.
If you have been to Malaysia, you must sure been to those toilets along the highways... Yes.. they are small right? Here, it's a bit smaller than the ones in Malaysia.. & for the shower room is smaller than the toilets here. So prepare buckets or toiletry bags to carry around stuff because there are limited hanging place. Maximum - 2. Minimum - none.

3. The toilets have the smell of the longkangs (drains) in Malaysia.
Yes.. sewerage smell.. love it or hate it.. You still have to use it unless you want to excrete or defaecate into the bottle.

4. You have to buy your own washing machine, fridge and drying stand or dryer.
or you can just beg your roommate to share ... normally ppl buy share... or buy from the graduating seniors.

5. Want to move out during 1st year 1st sem? dream on lah..
here, 1st you have to settle everything into the hostel first, then tell the hostel manager, then apply to the uni... go through some visa process.. wait.. confirmed the place..wait again.. then maybe you'll get one. Move second year lah. Save the hassle.

6. Internet is fast in hostel. ( good point)
but it's not free... you can choose from range 512kps (something like that) to 3 mb... with a price.. & it's not wireless.. we use dial up and cables.. your cable spoil.. sorry lah.. have to wait.

7. Bring your own bed sheet and blankets.
You can use the hostel one like me but if you like you can bring yours from M'sia. or you can bring the next time you go back...

8.If you are coming for winter....
no need to bring lots of winter clothing coz you will have no more space in your luggage bag.. come here, ask seniors, they will bring you to buy with a reasonable price.. keep your self warm to prevent your ears and nose and eye brows to drop off as these part lose heat the most.

9. If you know how to speak Russian, read Russian.. things will be easier for you.
Very true.

10. Don't expect much or desire a much better place.
This is what you get, live with it.

11. Live normally
That's the best thing you can do.

12. Get a rice cooker
Russia has no rice cooker. If you want to cook rice, bring a rice cooker or consult others how to cook without rice cooker.

13. Get a maybank account and tell the person you are going here so that she activate the overseas usage thingy.
of coz.. makes life easier coz money transfer here is very troublesome.

14. If you are a whining bastard or a bitch who just like to live comfortably like a king or queen
Please don't come to this god forsaken place.

p.s It's not that bad actually... You just have to accept it and live with it.. That's it.

Kursk and a whole lot of things.

Yes, I'm finally in Kursk now. No.. what I meant was.. I finally got my internet after arriving in Kursk after 3 days. So this update, may be a long post.. the content of it is about personal life so you will see some whining and complaining.

So it all started when my family and I reached KLIA at 10.30pm. We were told to meet at 8th door at the airport at 11.00pm. As we walked towards the end of the airport, (door 8th is at the end of the departure level), we couldn't see anybody.. not literally anybody, but student-like persons, getting ready to fly off with big bags.. All we saw were elderly and middle aged people sitting down.. Well, I was thinking that the rest were arriving soon, maybe they'll arrive at 11pm sharp with the person in charge.. but my mother on the other hand, was about to panic.. Well, true enough, they did arrive.. 15 minutes later.. What to do? We're all Malaysians.. Punctuality rarely exist in some of us.

Anyway, so there were 8 of us going. 6 girls and 2 boys.. Girls dominate.. wooohoo.. whatever. Of course we would be get to know each other and become good friends because these are the person that you are practically going to be with for 6 years!! BUT, my mum decided to make things move fast and start introducing me and herself as a mother infront of them... (what the hell?!) Excuse me, does my face have the labels "anti-social", "go away or I'll bite", "fuck off"," what the fuck are you looking at", "I don't like you, so I won't talk to you", "emo-freak" written all over????

Of course not! I know how to make friends.. but doesn mean you have to make friends the second you meet them.. Even though you want to make friends immediately.. first, you start with the smile right? and see whether the person smile back or not THEN only you make friends.. Well, that's my friend's making concept. You don't just go

" Hi, this is Jasmine and I'm her mother, nice to meet you"

& it gets worst, she started asking me to take pictures with the other student... OUT LOUD.

"Jasmine, go take pictures with your friends lah!"
"No, what for?"
" MAKE FRIENDS MAH.."

Seriously, I think my face have the "what the hell " expression all over.

ok, anyway, the journey to Kursk is split into 3.
1st- KL to Dubai (7 hours)
2nd- Dubai to Moscow (5 hours)
3rd- Moscow to Kursk ( 8 hours)
excluding the 4 hours of transit waiting in Dubai

KL-Dubai
The flight to Dubai was ok.. long and tiring. Initially my goal for the journey to Kursk is to watch all the movies on the plane.. but I didn't know that Emirates entertainment has 900 plus movies.. I managed to watch one and fell asleep all the way to Dubai because I was just too tired. Didn't really slept comfortably because the seat was so upright. I sat till my butt ache.

Dubai
So the 4 hours transiting was painfully and awfully to endure because everyone was tired and hungry. Nothing much in Dubai.. I didn't really take pictures because, all airports are the same... so moving on.

Dubai- Moscow.
Now, this is an interesting one. Who said Russians are cold hard fuckface people?? Well, me and my new found friend, Michelle (more about her later) were sitting between two russian men. I sat beside a man around 50 to 60 years and my new found friend sat beside a younger one, maybe around 30 to 40 years. They were good people. friendly and helpful. The younger one would tell us about Russia. Actually, tell her not me coz I was abit far away. Well, me on the other hand, have to do sign language with the guy beside me beside he couldn't speak english, and I doubt he understand a lot of english. He spoke Russian to me while I just do the pointing.. Oh ya, about this guy.. I bet he's a rich-fuck.. Know why?? He have golden teeth implanted into his god damn mouth! TEETH!!! not tooth.. 3 golden tooth!! I SHIT YOU NOT.. and he was smiling and gesturing at me about his duty-free gifts that he bought in Dubai.. mostly were vodka..
& when we were arriving Russia, I have to fill in the immigration card which was in Russian.. although there were translation, there are some parts that require inquiry.. So that Russian guy tried to explain to me what to write and how to fill in.. Even though I didn't ask for help, he still tried to explain, while I point here and there , nodding here and there.. Smiling here and there.. This is definitely a good start.

Touching down Moscow airport.

This was taken from the screen of the plane (Emirates has camera system installed outside the plane so passengers can see what is outside) Everything was covered in snow.

Moscow-Kursk.
Touched down, and sailed through the immigration with ease... We were picked up by seniors and got into a van which drove us to the hostel which is 8 hours away. Oh, did I mention it was 3 degrees out there? & it wasn't snowing but everywhere was filled with snow... I only can see white and brown through out the journey.. Nothing else. So, we arrived at the hostel around 3am and everyone was EXHAUSTED.. I think it is because of the jet lag. Thank god we have great seniors to help us move in and out the luggage from the van to our room.


Me and 2 new found friends. Aminah and Munga.

Kursk
Well, I've expected the condition of Kursk to be.. not so great.. maybe lower standard. But as I arrived.. I was shocked to see the room because it was smaller than it was expected. The toilets was disgustingly small. Remember my old room in Adelaide?? or my own room in my house.. Yes.. that's the size of the room here.. only that I'm sharing it with 2 other girls, my new found friend and another sarawakian. wow. shockingly small..

I'm not complaining and I don't want to go home. The fact is, I'm quite ok with it already.. On the 2nd day, I've already accepted this place.. It teaches you how to survive with such small spaces.. You'll learn how to organise your clothes and toiletries in a small shower room which consist of 2 nails for hanging purposes, and a dirty floor.. It teaches you how to buy what you need and not what you want. You have to think whether this things fits in your room because you just don't have that kind of space!! Russia is all about surviving. I think if you haven't been here, and came here, you'll definitely cry for home..


View from my window. While two of my roommates got a wall to stick and hang up their stuff, I got this big window beside my bed.


Yes, this is our room.



The spot I'm pointing at is my bed.


My super small study spot.


So, I'm now adapting to this new place and I'm quite happy!

Oh, did I mention that we have to buy our own washing machine, fridge, hangers, dryers, pans,pots, spoon, fork.. everything?

okay, about my new found friend.. Yes, her name is Michelle.. her full name is Michelle Munga Idi. She's a Lunbawang from Sarawak. & she laughs at anything and everything.. With her dry humour, we became fast friends.. I don't know why, I'm very in luck with the name "Michelle" . Last year, I had a "Michelle" as a roomate. This year, I have " Michelle" again as a roomate.. oh, and during the flight from KL- Kursk. She sat beside be. We didn't checked in together, but amazingly got the ticket side by side.. Call it fate.. or may be its just lady luck bestowing more luck on me again!

So classes haven't start yet because we have to sit for another entrance test... nobody told us that would be an entrance test.. Yesterday, we had English test.. it was amazingly easy because everyone started laughing as soon as they saw the questions. Even the seniors told us to prepare to laugh when you see the question. Example of one question:
What is the person who sells vegetables call?

So?? Do you know the answer to this??




VEGETABLE SELLER LAH! what else? or anything closest to the meaning of it.


So that conclude this entry. I think this is quite a life changing experience and you'll learn how to adapt and make use of what you have... so, why not Kursk?

p.s I've finally unpacked everything.. and it doesn't feel like a chicken coop anymore..

It's Never Farewell, when it comes to blogging.

FINALLY.... I get my flights confirmed... I am now.. OFFICIALLY flying.. on the 24th of March, 2.00am.. so means, I have to be there on 23rd night.... & the flight I'm taking is Emirates.. I'm going to be served by Saudi beauties with breathtaking eyes... After so many days of waiting, I'm finally going to study again!! Yippee!

Yes, I may seem thrill now, but who knows, I would hate that place to the core.... but I wouldn't put my expectation high.. I know I am going to a shitty place.. I'm aware that people there don't smile, and they hate foreigners.. they despise asians.. I'm understand I'm going to be stuck there for 6 years.. but hey, If I don't survive there, I won't survive anywhere.

So I guess these few days would be tiresome, as I have massive packing to do... There are still loads and loads of stuff that I've not done, and I have an interview this Monday... This is suppose to be plan B.. that's what my mum claims.. Well, cross my fingers and hope to die..

I suppose I may update one more entry about the interview, if I have to time, depending onwhether I've finish packing.. But if I can't I think this may be the last post.... OKAY.. not exactly last post.. but it'll be quite some time that I'll be updating, depending on the internet availability there and the time too...

Who knows, I'll be updating very soon...

Let the new chapter begin........ soon....


A week later....




Peace out.. V V

CheckList and Bizarre things.

Am currently doing a checklist now.. There are so many things to bring there.. I just don't know what to bring there.. There are things that I WANT to bring... and also things that I NEED to bring.. Need is a must..but want, let's just say it's a conflict with the inner side. & time is running out.. gawd!! I wish that my parents will do everything for me, but I realised that I don't need them to do this because they wouldn't know what I really need, or want... & I think I'm capable enough to go out and get it..

Well, this is the first time, going out here and there for last minute shopping.. because last time, I had no license. I have license now.. which is quite a blessing.. I get to zoom here and there.. Though the fines I got is quite a pain in the ass. Last time, I had no money, all the money comes from my mother's big purse.. Now I have money in my bank (though it's still my parents money, but consider it mine because I get to use and spend it with my own wise brain).

So what the hell am I still blogging and not out there with my ass scouting my needs??? Seriously, I don't know. I don't even know what I want.. I'm still too occupied with the thoughts of going bungee jumping with a bridal gown from Vera Wang with Miss Chai...which I don't know after how many years time only we'll be doing it.. I wished I have some kind of personal assistance, that would do all this things for me.. Yeah right, keep dreaming.. I'm no Paris Hilton. I just have to swallow the bitter fact that I have to do this all by myself.. This sucks man.. Seriously, and fuckingly sucks!

Anyway, for now.. I just have keep everything organised write them down..write them ALL DOWN... then I'm out of the house and get all those things at one shot.

and once in while, I get distracted by random thoughts.. for example ... the bungee jump thing... AGAIN.. The cute guy in MPH.. *grins* .. Oh, yesterday I decided that, if.. IF I cannot make it into medic.. if I fail and continue to fail like some pathetic loser.. Then... I'll join the army. Seriously. But.. the problem is.. Hello, you're in Malaysia.. They don't need the army because nobody wants to take over this country... because the leaders all love to sodomise each other and call each other immigrants... and while other countries are equipped with atomic, nuclear,hydrogen bomb.... We only got some C4 explosives which are capable to blow up some Mongolian chic in pieces... Other countries have warships and huge submarine which can DIVE.. our can only sink but cannot emerge.. & if and if there's really a war.. We won't use guns, and instead use silat and keris to fight the enemy to keep our "Ketuanan Melayu" spirit intact.. and if there's no jungle.. We will definitely lose. No corner to relak mah..

Well, that's just the worst case scenario if and only if I don't pass....

Book Attraction

This week, I will make my final visit to MPH store.. before I exit this god damn country... Yes, to the MPH store.. I have 2 reasons to go there.. 1st to grab a few novels to let the time on the plane to be more interesting (which is kind off the main reason)... the 2nd (although its not the main reason, it's the urge that makes me go) to sneak the last peek on that cute guy who works there.. (ok... I think this the main reason).. Yes, I've been stalking this guy in MPH for almost a month...

So, it started with one random day, I decided to invest all my free time to books, so I took a trip to MPH.. So, as I was scanning for good reads, I spotted him behind me.. He was, of course a worker who works there as he was wearing the strikingly red uniform that all MPH staff wore, and he was arranging the books on the shelves... At first, I just ignored him like everyone does and continue to find books that catch my eye....but then, when he moved to the shelves next to me, I saw a great glimpse of his facial feature.... Suddenly, all my eyes darted towards that guy beside me.... He's quite tall.. of course much taller than me... oh ya, he's a chinese.. with such adorable eyes..... and did I mention that he was cute?? .. Well, he's cute to me.. So, there I was, staring at some strangers, with my mouth half opened... seriously, it was quite embarrassing and a weird thing to do...

Anyway, because of my height, he probably didn't notice me, not that he would anyway.. I'm just another customer in the shop... So, after arranging the books, he walked to the other shelves, oblivious to my existence.. Don't get me wrong, I'm not hurt.... It's perfectly normal... But what's not normal.. to me.. because I never do this sort of thing and I don't do this kind of thing... I started to follow him around....wow.. what a stalker.. & when I realised myself doing such things, I think this is just completely ridiculous, so I walked back to my original shelves and start looking for good titles.. But occasionally, I would turn my head to find where he was..
& that wasn't it.. After that day, I started to go to the bookstore frequently.. FREQUENTLY.. as in.... one or two days in a week... Of course, I had an excuse to go there because I just finish reading and I need reloading of novels to pass my time...

Seriously, 3 months of doing nothing, really starts to do funny things to you.. During this 3 months, the internet is no longer an interest to me.. I blogged often to keep my thoughts intact.. I went on Facebook to check what is happening recently but I don't feel the need to ask more... What I see, is what I get.. Sometimes I get angry when I go on Facebook because I see so many unnecessary things which I don't want to elaborate.. True enough, I don't want to bother about the outside world.. I just want to be around books.. Yes, define bookworm.. I give you one right here.. Of course, 3 months of doing nothing also brought alot of realisation.. I realised I loved my sister more than I expected.. & I grew to be patient with her.. I hate to admit, but playing and singing with my sister was and still is, quite a joy.. I rather be with her than infront of the computer.. & when I'm not playing, I would indulged in my books..
Also, 3 months of doing nothing, just make me do things that I usually don't do...

for example, stalking that cute MPH staff... every few days in a week. Well, it's not exactly stalking, I would just go there and find books.. and occasionally, I would walked around and find him sitting at the counter or arranging books... Well I don't think I have crush on him.. I mean, I don't find myself day dreaming about him, but I just want to see him when I'm in the store.. I just want to look and observe him... & of course sometimes he notices me and sometimes our eyes met for 1 split second and I would burrow my head back into the books.. He does look at me, but maybe not in a weird way.. as I am still their regular customer..

Oh, He spoke to me too.. once.. If you call that speaking...He asked me whether I want to apply for membership card... Well, I rejected while I know I should have to make the time longer.. but silly me..

& last week, when I was helping out for the International Woman's Day event held in main centre of Jusco, I saw him again.. This time, without his red glowing uniform... It's his off day.. He saw me too.. I was coming up the escalator, while he walked past me.. I swear to fucking god he turned his head and looked at me for a split second....& then when I was at my booth table.. I saw him on the opposite side, walking.. & again.. I swear on to Holy Mother of all names.. that he looked at me.... from there.. to there..... I try not to sound so like lovestruck puppy.. because I know that I don't have that feelings towards him.. It's just that I like looking at him... See the difference??

Anyway..... I'm leaving next two weeks.. and probably the next trip to the book store would be the last time I see him... Well.. let's just say I want to keep him as a memory.. Well, call it fate, worker or customer.. we were meant to cross path...

If I ever have the chance to see him again.. I definately will marched up straight to him and say:

Hey, you're cute.. Can I be your friend????

yes.. if I have the guts..

p.s till now, I've been to the bookstore for almost 10 times.

Habits and Phone Calls

I have this particular habit that sometimes keep me amused during a boring day.. Yes, I have a lot of habits... Some which are not so healthy, and some which are just normal habits...

Sometimes, I get anonymous call by some anonymous person... & I would answer the phone with the normal "Hello tone" with the thought of a friend in my mind... but, on the other line, I would not get back the same reply... I guess this person must have dialed my number wrongly and without them knowing... So, instead of ending the call.. I would just linger on with the phone, trying to listen to the background noise.. thinking maybe I would catch a familiar tone..or guessing what is happening on the other end.. Sometimes, I can hear my mother's voice at the end, speaking.. sometimes I can hear baby crying.. sometimes even somebody shouting.. It's kind of amusing actually..despite that this person is losing who knows how much phone credit.. well.. that's his problem.

& sometimes it took about half an hour for that poor fella to realise it... Well, I'm still grateful to that person for making the half an hour of mine amusing.. and when they realise that, the call will eventually end.. and then, it was just me again...

and that's my cue to sink back into my reading world...



p.s The slow internet connection occasionally fucked my patience..

I Don't Want to Leave you, but I'm always Leaving you...

Before dozing off in the afternoon, I have tonnes of inspiration about what to blog... & then when I woke up groggy and disorientated, I felt my brain was like mashed potatoes, you know like the KFC's one..

After minutes of deep searching, there're just no ideas..so what the hell.. I decided to go random this time...

Ok, so let's see...

Few days ago, (three days ago, to be exact) I bought this book " The Time Traveller's Wife" from the local book store just to keep my days flying..

Yes, from the title you can see it's a love story.. (note the wife?)
Anyway,

It is a love story about a man with a genetic disorder that causes him to time travel unpredictably, and about his wife, an artist, who has to cope with his frequent absences and dangerous experiences.

(Adapted from Wikipedia)

Though I've haven't finish reading it yet, but at first I felt that this book is not all that interesting.. Sometimes, I see myself flipping through the pages... and there are times when I just took one look and then just closed the book.. Well, it's just because I'm yet to reached the climax.. You know when the climax is coming soon when all the problems start coming out... I'm still hold my expectations high on this book, because the story just started to get interested....

It's even on motion pictures!! I so wanna watch this.. Rachel Mcadams plays the wife, and the Eric Bana plays the forever leaving husband..



Yes, Eric Bana.. remember the hunk from Troy?? Paris' older brother..


But I guess the ending would be tragic...Some one must at least die.. that's how the story can be interesting... Because no sadness is sad enough compared to the grief for the death of a beloved..

" Time is nothing" - The Time Traveller's Wife..

Go Make Some Impressions...

Let's set aside the critics and the mocking that I usually do.. Just for this post, I would not use any foul words. Actually, the truth is, I had just taken my supper and I'm reluctant to sleep because I know that once I wake up tomorrow, I''ll be looking at a ball in front of the mirror. So, to pass time quickly, I decide to blog, again.

*I'm sorry if my blog is always about me, me and more me.. It may be boring, who knows, down right annoying.. Well, too bad.. I like to blog how the world revolves around ME*

Anyway....

Just now, I was checking one of my friend's profile in Facebook. This friend of mine is an old friend. We're not exactly close.. We don't really click, because we never tried clicking. Years ago, if we bumped into each other, we would either smile or exchange "Hi" . Now, if we were so fated to bumped into each other again, I think both of us would just walk passed each others as if we never met. & how I winded up in her profile, it's because I saw a photo of her and boy, which makes me curious whether she's in a relationship or not.. Call it busybody or what, it doesn't hurt to be curious. So I went into her profile and check out her recent wall post. Then, I happened to come across this friend of hers posting at her wall asking about how she was doing.. Her reply is :

"I'm fine, may I know who you are??"

May I know who you are?? Her name was just right above, & yet this friend of mine couldn't even remember... I'm not blaming her or accusing her for being ingrate... My point is, if you don't make an impression, you'll be forgotten.

To me, I think humans are very insignificant.. that's why they are so easily forgotten. & Some of them know this fact, that is why they try so hard to get attention. Because, once you'get recognition, you're printed into their minds. But if your just so unimportant, you'll just fade away. That's the sad fact.

So,

How many people have you forgotten??

How many people have forgotten you??

I know I have forgotten alot of people..& also have a fair share on people forgetting me... But I don't mind, because I get to disappear and be invisible.. How many people can pull that off??

Some may say I'm a pessimist.. but I think that I look at things at a different direction.

p.s That's why I say, Humans are like Robot.. Once your brain fucked up, you go malfunction.

Letter to Lady Luck

33, Lucky Avenue,
Imagination Park,
00000, Heaven.

Dear Lady Luck,

Hi, how are you??? You're one heck of a busy lady. Bestowing luck and taking luck from different low life person every single day.. I know you hate your job, like very much hate it, because you don't get paid for every luck you give and people mostly think that you don't exist and the luck given to them is fated or just plain accident.. I know, I understand exactly how you feel.. note that I highlighted and bold "exactly" in red shows that I really comprehend your situation. It sucks being invisible... Anyway, I'm guessing that you know me, you know, the short 19 year old girl?? The girl where sometimes (I think) you accidently gave me some bad luck not on purpose... I don't blame you, you must had a very bad day on those days.. I understand.. But today, I think I should gives you some heads up to prevent 2nd time happenings like today, which will be explained in detail if you continue reading..

Yes Lady Luck, I perfectly know that I don't know how to cook.. but You don't have to cause misfortune to me everytime I tried to dish up something... It's very hurting you know, plus the fact that I'm hungry, makes the problem far more aggravating.. Girls like age of mine, or maybe younger, tend to get very hungry easily.. & also often in a bad time.. especially at night..blame it on our raging hormones.. When we get PMS, we eat more too.. so have some pity for us girls.. & if we are hungry, we will be hungry..... we will stay hungry, no matter how much we force ourselves to sleep.. we will still be awake, because we're still hungry.. that is why they say: If a girl is hungry, feed her. (I don't know who said that, maybe it was me) So, now you understand why I was in the kitchen at 12am.. I know that I can't cook, but I can make something which is edible to me.. and only me. I don't mind, as long as I can eat. That is why, I hope you won't give me any misfortune anymore.

It's very annoying when you just finished frying some spaghetti in olive oil and garlic, and then ended up cleaning and wiping the kitchen floor, because you just "accidently", without grace, pour half of the food on to the open floor. I know that I'm clumsy and lazy, heck I ate out of a wok, who doesn't? It saves time and also water.. Or Maybe you were just concern when you saw how I cook... I assure you that it is 100% edible, although it may be too salty and not appetizing.. However, it doesn't give you an excuse to knock half of my wok of spaghetti to the floor.. Do you know how hard it is to get the oil stain of the floor.. Even till now, the floor is still oily eventhough I mopped it few times... It really took the enthusiasm of eating right out of me...

So you see, I'm writing to you to request that you would go low on me, and maybe spare me a few luck next time?? I reckon that this letter may be 1st or maybe 3rd letter you received, knowing that how little people believed you actually exist!!! It's ok, don't be so hard on yourself.. I also know about your past relationship that made you so disorientated in your job.. For example, how the asshole Mr Fate abandoned you at the altar, and eloped with Miss Destiny 2 years ago, ( I must admit, Miss Destiny was a hell of a bodacious babe, but you're a beauty on the inside, it takes time for people to figure out) and Mr Miracle was just plain gay! But work and personal stuff are different, you should keep it apart.. So please, have a good judgment next time. I hope the next time I cook, I get to eat right after I finished cooking, and not caught up with cleaning business after cooking... I can tolerate, but I'm not patient. So, you really don't want me cussing swear words at you, right?? Because, the next unlucky person would be you.. & I hate seeing you jobless, cause you're doing a damn good job for others..

Thank you very much.. I don't expect replies, but I don't mind hearing back from you..

Love,
The girl who can't fucking cook.

p.s I think I would be the next person in FML stating that how my mother in law bribed my husband to divorce me because I can't cook.